Cycle day 5
Hello there! Welcome to my new blog: Musings of Kazz.
I’ve decided to return to my blogging roots. I first started blogging waaaaay back in the early 2000s. God, I can’t believe that was 20 years ago. *instantly feels old*
Anyway, blogging and pen-to-paper journalling (before the age of the internet) has always been a way for me to express myself since I was a tender teen. It’s how I processed my thoughts and feelings. So it is no surprise that when I discovered menstrual cycle journalling in 2015, I immediately loved the idea.
I’ve decided to try combining these two things into one, as a way to both process and share. To allow myself to be seen, authentically, with vulnerability, because this is how we connect. By allowing our whole, messy selves to be seen. And perhaps someone out there will resonate with something on here.
So on this cycle day 5, as I have been marinating on ideas, visions, dreams and possibilities during my bleed over the past few days, I decided to take action on this one idea. Honestly, it feels a little scary but I decided to take the plunge as I was sick of having these ideas swirling in my head with nowhere to go!
I’ve been feeling a bit scattered, anxious and more than a little overwhelmed by the increasing pressure to do all the things. It’s at this time of cycle, these crossover days from inner winter to inner spring, where I can feel a sense of frustration with having big ideas and inspiration but not enough energy to enact on them just yet. Throw in my multi-passionate interests which also pull me in different directions, et voila.. instant overwhelm!
I’m sure it’s not helped by the fact that I am STILL bleeding quite heavily on day 5. A change to my cycle that I’ve noticed over the past year – my bleeds have gotten a little heavier and a little longer, which I’m aware is a sign of the beginnings of perimenopause. The beauty of cycle charting over the past 7 years is that I know when things are changing because I know what is normal for me. Body literacy and self-knowledge FTW!
So here I am blogging about all this instead of doing other work tasks that I probably should be doing. I guess there is a lesson in that also somewhere but my brain is too scattered to figure it out right now. Maybe it’ll come to me another day, but for now, it is what it is!