Cycle day 8
And just like that.. my desire to dress up in pretty colours, wear a bit of make up and go out dancing returns!
Yes I am now back in the preovulatory phase of my cycle – my inner spring. And it does feel nice to reconnect with this feminine maiden energy.
I don’t always feel a connection with that rising maiden energy. Sometimes my preovulatory phase can feel really rough – I can feel tired, vulnerable, sensitive, withdrawn, depressed. But however I feel, I listen to my body. I honour where she’s at. If I’m tired, I rest. If I feel vulnerable/sensitive, I do something that feels comforting and nourishing to me. If I feel withdrawn, I don’t force myself to socialise. And if I feel depressed, I find solace in creative outlets like playing piano and expressing my emotions in music.
These are all things I’ve done in the past. But sometimes.. I really do feel the playful, uplifting, free energy of inner spring. So I put on a cute outfit, wear make up for the first time in yonks and go out dancing! That’s what I did the other day and it felt so nice to reconnect with that part of myself – allowing myself to be seen again, to shine my light, my radiance, my sensuality.
So now, the question is – where to focus this rising energy? I kinda want to do All The Things! It can be tempting to try.. but I know that path leads to burnout real quick. It can also make me feel frazzled and directionless – like I’m trying to do everything, then get all indecisive and end up doing nothing.
But I’ve had a pretty focused and productive morning already with my work and even checked off several admin tasks that have been sitting in my To Do list staring at me for weeks.. if not months. *cough*
So I think I will just celebrate what I HAVE accomplished today. Save a little of that inner spring action-taking energy for tomorrow eh.